wow.. its been a really long time and a fkkin lot has happened.. me and tj got back toghether 2 days after xmas.. stayed together till after vday broke up for like 2 1/2 weeks went back out for like 3 hrs lol.. then 2 days later went back out.. till last saturday.. i s[ent the night and yea.. then this weekend hung out n yea.. i dont know.. its a very confusing relationship.. i love the kid to death i do but i know i dont love him as much as i used to because it just hurts too much and im not sure what he wants his feelings change like almost every day... this sucks.. tj means the world to me still.. hes my best friend and it means more than i could ever explain that he wants to be my friend and is tryin to be.. even tho we havent been able to be exactly friends lol bc we always hook up.. i dont know.. this is so difficult.. ive had so much advice and its all really great... and i listen to every word.. its just a matter if ill take it or when ill take it..*sigh* its funny tho because i cna have almost any guy i want and i have plenty that would love to be with me... and that flirt with n what not.. but i dont know.. i usually like the attention but now i kinda dont.. its odd.. hmm i dont know.. i guess i just felt like typing ya know? ill prolly right more soon.. or atleast im gunna try... iu havent really been home lately i dont like stayin home all day.. its not fun... OH! i got my license!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!! and now my car is in the shop right before spring break.. this sucks... lol.. oh well i guess.. i just really hope ill have a car! oh and i really hate when people have a hook up and they think something will come out of it.. specially when youve been drinking.. im sorry if thats birchy but its been really bothering me.. and then you change ur myspace and shit and well hate tp break it to you but we not together so change it! its annoying and juvinille.. oh wait i forgot you just a sophomore.. still you should be a lil more mature than that.. and another thing.. he doesnt like you sweetie.. he did like 3 1/2 months ago.. get over it! he doesnt liek and he never will... stop trying on something thats not there.. oh and also i hate when people pressure their friends to do shit they dont really wanna do or put them in uncomfortable or akward situations.. it pisses me off.. its annoying and disrespectful.. and dont you dare say hes pulling the same shit bc you and everyone else forced it so its actually all your damn fault dont blame me i didnt do a damn thing actually and yea maybe he didnt make teh situation better but it still falls back on you.. oh and it annpys me soo omuch how you have/had feelings for her when she could give too shits less about you.. and you know.. shes immature, annoying, disrespectful and rude.. she has no class.. and shes just a plain bitch.. sorry. thats how i really feel.. i tried to like her.. but she ruined it.. what ever im over it.. just i mean i dont understand but i guess i never will.. but i guess in a way i understand.. hard t explain.. what ever in time you'll see that your gunna come crawling back to me.. woooo! i needed that lmao.. and theres more where that came from.. jeez this really does help and i guess it maks it better that no one ever reads this.. phew! haha i dont care tho either way.. i think im comming off as a big bitch.. but ive held this in for waaay too long and i really needed to get it off my chest.. and im sorry if i offened anyone thats not the people its directed towards..bc teh peopel whose it directed towards needed to here it.. thank if you actually read this.. good night! =] | 
